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hugseverycat) wrote2021-03-17 11:48 am
hugseverycat) wrote2021-03-17 11:48 am
why do i have to have a job
I'm having a tough week. I have been sleeping like shit, and feeling tired and cold all the time, and I'm unmotivated and resentful at my job. Today I resent my boss for having invited me to a meeting scheduled during my lunch break without telling me the subject. I had to track him down and it turns out that some people in some random department want to ask me about the long-running project I work on.
IT COULD HAVE BEEN AN EMAIL
But no I have to move my lunch break around so I can sit in a fucking video chat to tell them really basic shit.
I am extremely resentful of the very IDEA of meetings right now. Our company presumably pays lots of money for this chat program that has all kinds of features like assigning tasks but every time someone wants to do something they set up 1-3 recurring weekly meetings with 10-30 people, don't give anyone an agenda, and the entire purpose of the project seems to be "have at least 1 hour of meetings a week and then maybe someone in the meeting will agree to do some work at some point in the future".
I attended a meeting on Monday that was an hour long, and the only agenda item I gave a shit about was "how can we make it so that we can collaborate on this project in ways other than waiting for the weekly meeting" but that agenda item got pushed because 3 people (of the 20 attendees) would rather spend the last 25 minutes of the meeting arguing about a topic that I literally knew nothing about.
Anyway when I'm not in meetings I just dither around and feel like a bad, lazy person because I can't bring myself to do any of my actual work.
It sucks.
IT COULD HAVE BEEN AN EMAIL
But no I have to move my lunch break around so I can sit in a fucking video chat to tell them really basic shit.
I am extremely resentful of the very IDEA of meetings right now. Our company presumably pays lots of money for this chat program that has all kinds of features like assigning tasks but every time someone wants to do something they set up 1-3 recurring weekly meetings with 10-30 people, don't give anyone an agenda, and the entire purpose of the project seems to be "have at least 1 hour of meetings a week and then maybe someone in the meeting will agree to do some work at some point in the future".
I attended a meeting on Monday that was an hour long, and the only agenda item I gave a shit about was "how can we make it so that we can collaborate on this project in ways other than waiting for the weekly meeting" but that agenda item got pushed because 3 people (of the 20 attendees) would rather spend the last 25 minutes of the meeting arguing about a topic that I literally knew nothing about.
Anyway when I'm not in meetings I just dither around and feel like a bad, lazy person because I can't bring myself to do any of my actual work.
It sucks.